August 26, 2006

here's the thing

tungkol sa spot the difference.

i was able to talk with sonia francesca earlier. ang unang sinabi ko sa kanya ay ang tungkol sa mga libro namin na tila iisa ang illustration. ganito pala ang nangyari. may option kasi kami bilang writer na magbigay ng pictures (usually cut-outs from magazines) na gagamiting basis ng illustrator para maging cover ng mga libro namin. ganoon ang ginawa ni sonia. nag-submit siya ng cut-out pic para magamit na "model" ng artist.

and so, the illustrations on our books may look one and the same but they were drawn by two different artists. mine's by roldan agsalud and hers is by annie (i think). nagkataon lang na magkaparehas yung pinabasehan nilang pic.

yun lang po.

spot the difference

i noticed sonia francesca's book on the shelf and instantly recognized the illustration


August 25, 2006

is there a doctor in the house?

i'm a huge fan of House, MD. ever seen that show? well i just looove the guy. of all the episodes i've seen so far--season 2, episode 2 is by far the most poignant and the most inspiring.



it's also the most disturbing graphic-wise. i had to cringe a couple or so times. one was when they had to drill andie's head and the second when her eyes got all bloody (notice the patch)... for a more detailed synopsis, read this.

August 22, 2006

usapang doggy

Birthday month ni Bubba ko ngayon! She's eleven already, tanda na 'no? Ang lifespan kasi ng small dog is fifteen years. She's what is known as a geriatric dog. Pero quiet ka lang ha, hindi kasi niya alam 'yon. Feeling niya puppy pa din siya! This is her near the time when I first got her.



Hindi ko na maalala kung kailan yung exact date ng birthday niya. Ang bad ko no? Tagal na kasi nu'n at saka hindi naman kasi sa akin lumaki si Bubba. The first five years of her life she spent with my friend Chin.

Here's how the story goes. Yung dog ko talaga, si Yondale. Siya yung mom ni Bubbles. Lookie:



My dog before her was Charugi. Actually, Sheronge dapat meaning cute kaya lang pangit pakinggan kaya ginawa kong Charugi. Minana ko pa siya sa Korean tenant ng kuya ko noon. (Oh, how they love their bawang!)

After I bought Yon way back 1993 from an unreputable breeder in Dapitan, naglayas Charugi. Yes, naglayas! Iyon talaga ang hinala kong nangyari. Hindi naman kasi siya lumalabas ng gate namin pero this one time lumabas siya. Sa tingin ko nagselos siya ng todo kay Yon. I'm guilty of favoritism kasi. I was in school then when it happened kaya hindi ko siya nahanap agad. Siyempre pa, dahil takaw pulot ang mga asong tulad n'ya, hindi ko na s'ya ulit nakita. Unfortunately, wala akong digital pic niya so I can't show you how she looks like.

2001 nang mawala si Yon. Nakalabas din siya ng gate mag-isa. This time I don't think naglayas siya. Lakwatsera de primera kasi 'yon. Much like Bubba. I remember, the first couple of weeks after I lost her, hindi talaga ako mapakali. Ilang beses kaming nagronda ni Andre sa neighborhood to no avail. Nagpakalat din ako ng flyers/posters again to no avail. Up to now I still miss the bi-atch. *sniff, sniff* Kung sino man nag-dognap sa kanya, leche siya!

Through the years, marami ng naging puppies si Yon. Blame it on Mico, my other dog. Sa kanya nagmana si Bubba sa looks department. Hyper-active ang sex life ni Mico at Yon which was fine by me dahil dagdag income, hehe.

Much as I wanted to, I can't raise all their pups. Kay Chin napunta si Bubba. Pero nang mawala si Yon, pinahiram niya sa akin si Bubba. Until I decided to give her back after a week. Sabi ko, kapag nagtagal pa sa akin si Bubba baka hindi ko na magawang isauli pa siya.

About a month later, Chin called me up to tell me na may sakit daw si Bubba. She wanted me to take care of her kasi hindi daw n'ya magagawa. Later that day I went to pick Bubba up. Tunay nga na may sakit ang pobresita! She was so thin and weak and badly infected with ticks. Iyon bale ang sakit niya, nasobrahan ng garapata!! No exag, naubusan na yata siya ng dugo kasi hinang-hina talaga siya at saka halos hindi na makalakad.

Long story short, I nursed her back to health and she's been with me ever since.

August 21, 2006

new look

because i was so sick and tired of the old one, i thought of changing the site's layout. i just hope i was able to do it right. minsan kasi, okay sa monitor ko pero sa iba medyo hindi.

heniweyz, this change is to commemorate the anniv of my first book which came out this month, three years ago!!

wadya think of the "wedding giftwrapper-ish" theme? hope 'ya like it.

August 15, 2006

debilitated

I saw this book called 52 Fights: A Newlyweds Confession by author Jennifer Jeanne Patterson -- I want a copy! As in badly.

It brought to mind this series idea that I cooked up light years ago. I called it ENDURING. By the way, I tweaked the logo. This is how it looks now.



Up until now, the series' still lodge in my head somewhere. I know how come and it's because of this...

'This' is my biggest hurdle as a writer. I've got a couple or so series cooking in my brain right now but I can't find the will to begin any of them. They say reality is perception. Well, I perceive I don't have it in me to write said series the way I want them to turn out. So why write them at all? I want to be perfect but I'm not. I want to be really, really good, but I'm not. I want to be a lot of things that I'm not. I don't want to settle and it pains me that I can't avoid settling sometimes (okay, most of the time). All this equates to frustration--in big bold capital letters!!!

Experts say, one has to be realistic in setting goals. That's one of the ways to cure 'this'. Such being the case, realistically speaking, I know it's gonna be a looong haul before I learn to turn 'this' into a positive.

August 11, 2006

another ooh child day

I bawled my eyes out yesterday morning. Nag-follow up ako ng manuscript at ang sabi sa akin for revision (again!) yung pinasa ko. Double revision na siya bale. This is a first for me. Hindi ko talaga siya inaasahan. And I really felt bad about it. Ang resulta, waterworks. That's me, Ang laki-laki kung tao pero sobrang iyakin ko.

I felt frustration plus disappointment plus the dread of asking moolah help from my bro all at the same time. The last bit's a toughie. Hindi na kasi supportive sa chosen path ko ang kuya ko. Mabagal daw kasi ang asenso. So true. Alam ko disappointed at frustrated din siya sa nangyayari. We've talked about this already many times before. We just can't see eye to eye kaya para lang kaming nasa merry-go-round.

Yesterday, when I called, he let his wife do the talking. That's how I know that he's mightily displeased. My sister in law cited Ms. Zafra as an example. Apparently, in one of her articles, she stated something about writing not being a stable and financially rewarding career. Again, so true. I was asked, paano daw kung puro revision ang mangyayari. I asked myself the same question, pa'no nga ba?

Hindi ko din alam ang sagot. Ang alam ko lang, hindi pa ako handang bumalik sa "makinarya". And I'm not sure I'd ever be ready to. I could follow my brother's advice and take up nursing so I could go to the States where the money is. But I can't see myself being happy doing that either. I don't know if I'm being stupid or what. Tama nga siguro si Dr. Phil, lahat ng tao may kanya-kanyang "currency" and not all has a dollar peso sign on it. Ever since kasi, hindi ako na-motivate ng pera. I recognize it as something that I need but I won't bend myself backwards just to get it. Okay na sa akin ang sapat lang. Unfortunately, that ain't the case with writing. Ang bagal ko kasing magsulat. Why? Cause, every time I write, I go head to head with my self-doubt demons.

Libet, ever the great best friend that she is helped me get my mind off the whole deal by giving me an account of what happened to her at the doctors last Friday. Aray! I won't go into the details basta, kuwento pa lang, tunog masakit na. In light of what she's going through, minsan naiisip ko na wala akong karapatang ma- *insert synonym for "feel bad" here* sa kaliit-liitang bagay gaya ng revision. That stuff happens. At least, I've control of my problem. Nasa akin ang solution. All I've to do is write more so that eventually I could write better.

Okay, enough of that.

In other news. Since I wasn't in a writing mood the other day, I decided to work on my proposed layout for the series that I wrote. Medyo pa-cutie-cutie yung nagawa ko to match the logo that my nephew Andre did for me. Pero off tangent sa nilalaman ng mga kuwento kasi medyo seryoso yung series. Bahala na. Sana ma-aprubahan yung layout.



I asked this friend of mine who's good with graphics if she could help me with my layout. Pero hindi na rin natuloy yung hiling ko kasi nga ginanahan ako kaya ako na lang ang gumawa. I told her that and she commented something to the effect na, ang galing siguro kung ako na nga ang nagsulat, ako pa ang gumawa ng cover layout, tapos ako rin ang nag-drawing ng illustration.

Oo nga. Ang kewl siguro nu'n. Kaya lang yung last bit, mukhang malayo pang mangyari. I swore mag-aaral akong mag-drawing ng illustrations kaya lang hindi na ako nakakapag-sketch lately. Wala lang. I guess, wala lang ako sa mood.

This same friend me a text message saying that my book "Out of the Blue" is out already. Nagpunta ako kanina sa neighborhood talipapa para bumili ng kopya kaya lang nada. Ayoko ng dumayo pa sa malayo kaya hihintayin ko na lang yung compli copy. I can't wait.