because i was so sick and tired of the old one, i thought of changing the site's layout. i just hope i was able to do it right. minsan kasi, okay sa monitor ko pero sa iba medyo hindi.
heniweyz, this change is to commemorate the anniv of my first book which came out this month, three years ago!!
wadya think of the "wedding giftwrapper-ish" theme? hope 'ya like it.
August 21, 2006
August 15, 2006
debilitated
I saw this book called 52 Fights: A Newlyweds Confession by author Jennifer Jeanne Patterson -- I want a copy! As in badly.
It brought to mind this series idea that I cooked up light years ago. I called it ENDURING. By the way, I tweaked the logo. This is how it looks now.
Up until now, the series' still lodge in my head somewhere. I know how come and it's because of this...
'This' is my biggest hurdle as a writer. I've got a couple or so series cooking in my brain right now but I can't find the will to begin any of them. They say reality is perception. Well, I perceive I don't have it in me to write said series the way I want them to turn out. So why write them at all? I want to be perfect but I'm not. I want to be really, really good, but I'm not. I want to be a lot of things that I'm not. I don't want to settle and it pains me that I can't avoid settling sometimes (okay, most of the time). All this equates to frustration--in big bold capital letters!!!
Experts say, one has to be realistic in setting goals. That's one of the ways to cure 'this'. Such being the case, realistically speaking, I know it's gonna be a looong haul before I learn to turn 'this' into a positive.
It brought to mind this series idea that I cooked up light years ago. I called it ENDURING. By the way, I tweaked the logo. This is how it looks now.
Up until now, the series' still lodge in my head somewhere. I know how come and it's because of this...
'This' is my biggest hurdle as a writer. I've got a couple or so series cooking in my brain right now but I can't find the will to begin any of them. They say reality is perception. Well, I perceive I don't have it in me to write said series the way I want them to turn out. So why write them at all? I want to be perfect but I'm not. I want to be really, really good, but I'm not. I want to be a lot of things that I'm not. I don't want to settle and it pains me that I can't avoid settling sometimes (okay, most of the time). All this equates to frustration--in big bold capital letters!!!
Experts say, one has to be realistic in setting goals. That's one of the ways to cure 'this'. Such being the case, realistically speaking, I know it's gonna be a looong haul before I learn to turn 'this' into a positive.
August 11, 2006
another ooh child day
I bawled my eyes out yesterday morning. Nag-follow up ako ng manuscript at ang sabi sa akin for revision (again!) yung pinasa ko. Double revision na siya bale. This is a first for me. Hindi ko talaga siya inaasahan. And I really felt bad about it. Ang resulta, waterworks. That's me, Ang laki-laki kung tao pero sobrang iyakin ko.
I felt frustration plus disappointment plus the dread of asking moolah help from my bro all at the same time. The last bit's a toughie. Hindi na kasi supportive sa chosen path ko ang kuya ko. Mabagal daw kasi ang asenso. So true. Alam ko disappointed at frustrated din siya sa nangyayari. We've talked about this already many times before. We just can't see eye to eye kaya para lang kaming nasa merry-go-round.
Yesterday, when I called, he let his wife do the talking. That's how I know that he's mightily displeased. My sister in law cited Ms. Zafra as an example. Apparently, in one of her articles, she stated something about writing not being a stable and financially rewarding career. Again, so true. I was asked, paano daw kung puro revision ang mangyayari. I asked myself the same question, pa'no nga ba?
Hindi ko din alam ang sagot. Ang alam ko lang, hindi pa ako handang bumalik sa "makinarya". And I'm not sure I'd ever be ready to. I could follow my brother's advice and take up nursing so I could go to the States where the money is. But I can't see myself being happy doing that either. I don't know if I'm being stupid or what. Tama nga siguro si Dr. Phil, lahat ng tao may kanya-kanyang "currency" and not all has adollar peso sign on it. Ever since kasi, hindi ako na-motivate ng pera. I recognize it as something that I need but I won't bend myself backwards just to get it. Okay na sa akin ang sapat lang. Unfortunately, that ain't the case with writing. Ang bagal ko kasing magsulat. Why? Cause, every time I write, I go head to head with my self-doubt demons.
Libet, ever the great best friend that she is helped me get my mind off the whole deal by giving me an account of what happened to her at the doctors last Friday. Aray! I won't go into the details basta, kuwento pa lang, tunog masakit na. In light of what she's going through, minsan naiisip ko na wala akong karapatang ma- *insert synonym for "feel bad" here* sa kaliit-liitang bagay gaya ng revision. That stuff happens. At least, I've control of my problem. Nasa akin ang solution. All I've to do is write more so that eventually I could write better.
Okay, enough of that.
In other news. Since I wasn't in a writing mood the other day, I decided to work on my proposed layout for the series that I wrote. Medyo pa-cutie-cutie yung nagawa ko to match the logo that my nephew Andre did for me. Pero off tangent sa nilalaman ng mga kuwento kasi medyo seryoso yung series. Bahala na. Sana ma-aprubahan yung layout.
I asked this friend of mine who's good with graphics if she could help me with my layout. Pero hindi na rin natuloy yung hiling ko kasi nga ginanahan ako kaya ako na lang ang gumawa. I told her that and she commented something to the effect na, ang galing siguro kung ako na nga ang nagsulat, ako pa ang gumawa ng cover layout, tapos ako rin ang nag-drawing ng illustration.
Oo nga. Ang kewl siguro nu'n. Kaya lang yung last bit, mukhang malayo pang mangyari. I swore mag-aaral akong mag-drawing ng illustrations kaya lang hindi na ako nakakapag-sketch lately. Wala lang. I guess, wala lang ako sa mood.
This same friend me a text message saying that my book "Out of the Blue" is out already. Nagpunta ako kanina sa neighborhood talipapa para bumili ng kopya kaya lang nada. Ayoko ng dumayo pa sa malayo kaya hihintayin ko na lang yung compli copy. I can't wait.
I felt frustration plus disappointment plus the dread of asking moolah help from my bro all at the same time. The last bit's a toughie. Hindi na kasi supportive sa chosen path ko ang kuya ko. Mabagal daw kasi ang asenso. So true. Alam ko disappointed at frustrated din siya sa nangyayari. We've talked about this already many times before. We just can't see eye to eye kaya para lang kaming nasa merry-go-round.
Yesterday, when I called, he let his wife do the talking. That's how I know that he's mightily displeased. My sister in law cited Ms. Zafra as an example. Apparently, in one of her articles, she stated something about writing not being a stable and financially rewarding career. Again, so true. I was asked, paano daw kung puro revision ang mangyayari. I asked myself the same question, pa'no nga ba?
Hindi ko din alam ang sagot. Ang alam ko lang, hindi pa ako handang bumalik sa "makinarya". And I'm not sure I'd ever be ready to. I could follow my brother's advice and take up nursing so I could go to the States where the money is. But I can't see myself being happy doing that either. I don't know if I'm being stupid or what. Tama nga siguro si Dr. Phil, lahat ng tao may kanya-kanyang "currency" and not all has a
Libet, ever the great best friend that she is helped me get my mind off the whole deal by giving me an account of what happened to her at the doctors last Friday. Aray! I won't go into the details basta, kuwento pa lang, tunog masakit na. In light of what she's going through, minsan naiisip ko na wala akong karapatang ma- *insert synonym for "feel bad" here* sa kaliit-liitang bagay gaya ng revision. That stuff happens. At least, I've control of my problem. Nasa akin ang solution. All I've to do is write more so that eventually I could write better.
Okay, enough of that.
In other news. Since I wasn't in a writing mood the other day, I decided to work on my proposed layout for the series that I wrote. Medyo pa-cutie-cutie yung nagawa ko to match the logo that my nephew Andre did for me. Pero off tangent sa nilalaman ng mga kuwento kasi medyo seryoso yung series. Bahala na. Sana ma-aprubahan yung layout.
I asked this friend of mine who's good with graphics if she could help me with my layout. Pero hindi na rin natuloy yung hiling ko kasi nga ginanahan ako kaya ako na lang ang gumawa. I told her that and she commented something to the effect na, ang galing siguro kung ako na nga ang nagsulat, ako pa ang gumawa ng cover layout, tapos ako rin ang nag-drawing ng illustration.
Oo nga. Ang kewl siguro nu'n. Kaya lang yung last bit, mukhang malayo pang mangyari. I swore mag-aaral akong mag-drawing ng illustrations kaya lang hindi na ako nakakapag-sketch lately. Wala lang. I guess, wala lang ako sa mood.
This same friend me a text message saying that my book "Out of the Blue" is out already. Nagpunta ako kanina sa neighborhood talipapa para bumili ng kopya kaya lang nada. Ayoko ng dumayo pa sa malayo kaya hihintayin ko na lang yung compli copy. I can't wait.
July 31, 2006
nagpapagising lang
current mood: inaantok
keanu vs. brad?
keanu ako ever since bogus days pa. ayoko ng sabihin kung bakit mas gusto ko sya dahil baka gerahin ako ng mga brad-a-holics na magagawi dito.
heniweyz, today has been a keanu filled day. nag-channel surf ako kanina, nakita ko sya sa hbo (devil's advocate). isang clik pa at nakita ko na naman sya sa star movies (bill and ted's). what a coincidence, sabi ko sa sarili ko. later pagkagaling ko ng sm, binuksan ko ulit yung tv. nyek, sya ulit ang nakita ko. constantine naman sa hbo.
wla lang *shrug*
keanu vs. brad?
keanu ako ever since bogus days pa. ayoko ng sabihin kung bakit mas gusto ko sya dahil baka gerahin ako ng mga brad-a-holics na magagawi dito.
heniweyz, today has been a keanu filled day. nag-channel surf ako kanina, nakita ko sya sa hbo (devil's advocate). isang clik pa at nakita ko na naman sya sa star movies (bill and ted's). what a coincidence, sabi ko sa sarili ko. later pagkagaling ko ng sm, binuksan ko ulit yung tv. nyek, sya ulit ang nakita ko. constantine naman sa hbo.
wla lang *shrug*
July 30, 2006
argh!
allow me to waste more blog space.
super sakit ng ulo ko, three days na. i did yoga stretches first thing kanina. it helped a little. and then i slept. when i woke up balik na naman yung sakit. ang humid na naman kasi tapos biglang uulan sa hapon. ka-bad trip. last week nga nilagnat ako. buti na lang hindi nagtuloy-tuloy. prior to that, nag-comment ako kay claudia santiago. ang sabi ko "at least ikaw may excuse, nagkasakit ka" we were talking about beating our personal work deadlines. the very next day, ayun na, nilagnat na ako. never underestimate the power of suggestion talaga...
plus i think my sinuses are acting up again kasi ambantut ng baby dog ko. i can't give her a bath for fear that she might get sick. madali kasi siyang magka-ubo. that, and because tinatamad lang talaga ako, hehe
btw, she'll be turning eleven next month. nirarayuma na nga pag minsan.
yun lang po. sa ngayon makikinig na lang muna ako ng ooh child.
super sakit ng ulo ko, three days na. i did yoga stretches first thing kanina. it helped a little. and then i slept. when i woke up balik na naman yung sakit. ang humid na naman kasi tapos biglang uulan sa hapon. ka-bad trip. last week nga nilagnat ako. buti na lang hindi nagtuloy-tuloy. prior to that, nag-comment ako kay claudia santiago. ang sabi ko "at least ikaw may excuse, nagkasakit ka" we were talking about beating our personal work deadlines. the very next day, ayun na, nilagnat na ako. never underestimate the power of suggestion talaga...
plus i think my sinuses are acting up again kasi ambantut ng baby dog ko. i can't give her a bath for fear that she might get sick. madali kasi siyang magka-ubo. that, and because tinatamad lang talaga ako, hehe
btw, she'll be turning eleven next month. nirarayuma na nga pag minsan.
yun lang po. sa ngayon makikinig na lang muna ako ng ooh child.
July 23, 2006
o-o-h child
I've forgotten how much I used to love this song until I heard it again recently in an episode of Kevin Hill. But the version they used wasn't as upbeat as the version I remember. Theirs was of a much slower tempo, more ballad-y
Eitherway, the positive message of the lyrics still come's across. Perfect to listen to when you feel blaah. Definitely a feel good song.
Eitherway, the positive message of the lyrics still come's across. Perfect to listen to when you feel blaah. Definitely a feel good song.
Originally done by The Five Stairsteps
Written by Stan Vincent in 1970
O-o-h child things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child things'll get brighter
O-o-h child things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child things'll get brighter
Someday well get it toghether and well get it undone
Someday when the world is much brighter
Someday well walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Someday when the world is much lighter
O-o-h child things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child things'll get brighter
O-o-h child things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child things ll get brighter
Someday well get it toghether and well get it undone
Someday when the world is much brighter
Someday well walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Someday when the world is much lighter
O-o-h child things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child things'll get brighter
O-o-h child things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child things ll get brighter
Someday well get it toghether and well get it undone
Someday when the world is much brighter
Someday well walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Someday when the world is much lighter
O-o-h child things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child things'll get brighter
O-o-h child things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child things ll get brighter
Right now right now
Cover versions made to name a few:
The Spinners -- Dusty Springfield -- Nina Simone -- Bruce Ruffin --Laura Nyro & LaBelle -- Richie Havens -- Dee Dee Sharp -- Valerie Carter -- Milton Nascimento -- Stormy Weather -- Nanette Natal -- John Stoddart -- Hall & Oates -- Beth Orton -- Edwin Hawkins Singers -- DeLeon Richards -- Nnenna Freelon -- BeBe & CeCe Winans -- Trish Vogel -- Ed Hamilton -- Ramsey Lewis -- The Posies -- Beth Fitchet Wood -- The Wondermints -- Lenny Williams -- Nice & Smooth -- and others.
Of course, this post won't be complete without some mp3 links
Valerie Carter
Marvin Gaye
The Five Stairsteps (wma)
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